((Editor's comments in double parenthesis - Homer))
Being Created and Being Destroyed
12 June 1992
Copyright (C) 1992 A Voice of the Free Zone (Electra)
Redistribution rights granted for non commercial purposes.
The primary ARC Break with being Destroyed is having been Created
in the first place. You can only be destroyed if you were created.
Being destroyed is a SOLUTION to being created.
Thetans detest being created. That puts them on an effect point
forever more, and leads to no responsibility for no responsibility.
'I had nothing to do with being created, and I had nothing to
do with having nothing to do with being created.'
One's Mortal Body is a solution to an Immortal Body that one couldn't
stand and couldn't get rid of.
Being created forever is Hell forever.
There is no Heaven great enough that could be given you that would
make up for having been created no matter the circumstances or
the kindness with which it was done.
Since even a kind God then is the enemy, how much more so is one
who made you and placed you on Earth against your will?
In any case your parents had free will on the subject of sex,
so even if God made the universe, your parents made you.
This is a piss off of magnitude. Of course it's all wrong, you
CHOSE all the way up and down the line. You even chose to not
know you chose. But to deal with this takes some measure of ability
to confront the preposterous.
Time itself is a solution to the first moment of time where you
found yourself created. Worse, you were created in a universe
full of people and things trying to destroy you.
The ARC Break is with having been created, but rather than try
to deal with what created you, you decided to take off and try
to deal with what was trying to destroy you.
The ARC Break you have with things that are trying to destroy
you is very secondary to, and takes all its energy from, the primary
ARC Break you have with the thing that you consider created you.
Something made you BE, in a universe of things trying to make
you NOT BE.
By putting your attention on those things trying to make you NOT
BE, you are failing to deal with the thing that made you BE in
the first place and which you really hate. This creates time,
a moving away, frame by frame, from the original first frame of
consternation at having been created without your say so.
Beings seek to be Immortal by destroying what is trying to destroy
them, because if you were created you can be destroyed. The way
to really re-attain Immortality is to destroy that which is trying
to CREATE you, make you BE. But that would have to be an AS-ISness
of that thing which created you, now wouldn't it.
YOU CREATED IT 'CREATING YOU!'
So you see the incident of 'being created' has an earlier beginning,
you CHOSE to be 'created by something else', there was an aesthetic
to it, a beauty to the fraud, a Willingness to be Unwilling, a
gorgeousness to the delusion of illusion.
You can't help but be, but its nice to be able to sleep every
now and then and be able to recognize your responsibility for
what ever dream you are in, so you can leave it or enter it or
even change it at will.
As long as you realize that you were not created, then you will
not mind all these beings and things trying to destroy you. That's
the only game there could be, to kill an Immortal Being. Of course
they lose in the end, because you can and will out survive all
of them. You made or hired them anyhow.
But if you think you were MADE, then you will resent like crazy
all these things trying to destroy you, for one because you think
they can, and for two because before that resentment is the earlier
resentment towards what CREATED you.
Don't think for a moment that the resentment is because this thing
that made you put you in a bad place. Being CREATED is a fundamental
violation of Personal Sovereignty. Being raped has nothing to
do with having something taken from you, or having someone invade
your space against your will. Being raped is being MADE.
That's enough to piss anyone off.
What bigger effect can you be? Here are all these huge other determinisms
getting together and deciding to create you out of nothing, or
out of parts that could care less.
A moment before you isn't. A moment after, you is.
You are natively a CAUSE. The purpose of a CAUSE is to create
It is NOT to create other CAUSES.
Perhaps to create the apparency of other causes, but no cause
can create a true other cause.
What is cause, is cause. If you are any cause at all, that is
proof that you were not created.
You are not just a conglomeration or complexity of other causes,
either. That's the delusion of the PhD know-it-alls.
You are CAUSE. That means you revel in the creation of EFFECTS.
Especially effects on yourself.
One of the effects you have indulged in is this illusion that
you were created by another cause, God, your parents, the physical
universe etc. It's all a lot of bunk. But there is an aesthetic
Good, NOW you are making case gain, and perhaps you can see why
no one else is.
Many mortal women detest being women, by the way. Many of them
would have preferred to be a male if they had only one life to
They will SAY they are glad they aren't a male, but it's usually
because men are used as war fodder or are burdened with outrageous
responsibilities like a pack animal.
If it weren't for that, many mortal women would have preferred
to be a man, given only one life. Since they weren't born a male,
their only claim to fame in their OWN eyes is their ability to
CREATE a male through their son. ASK THEM, see what they say.
Sometimes they use this ability to CREATE males to the hilt as
it is as close to being male as they think they will ever come.
Sometimes after they CREATE a male, born of their own jealousy
to BE a male, they will try to discredit it out of that same jealousy.
If you can't be it, make it, and then put it down as unworthy
The solution to all this of course is a clear vision of Immortality
and personal knowing responsibility for having been a female in
the first place with the attendant knowledge that they can be
a male again if they should so choose.
But who would want to?
It's hating not having what you would hate having if you had it.
Your average mortal male doesn't want to be a male body either!
Once the dwindling spiral takes hold, being a female is only a
safe solution to having been a male just prior, and being a male
is a safe solution to having been a female just prior. Around
and round we go, never knowing where we've been, where we are,
or where we're going. But you know these women who scream about
how bad men are? Just check them out AS MEN a few lifetimes back.
Same for men that scream about how bad women are. What, they have
only lived one life? Well we do wonder why.
The male in this life has experienced 3 general classes of womanhood
by the time he dies, Mothers, Wives, and Daughters.
((One can also include Grandmothers and Grand Daughters, and
Great Grand Mothers and Great Grand Daughters, etc. Each person's
this-life-time track includes a lot of charge on ancestors and
heirs, even if he or she never 'met' them. Grandparents for example
are part responsible for his parent's nuttiness after all, so
the child 'meets' his grandparents in his meeting with his parents.))
These relationships in this life to Mothers, Wives and Daughters,
are the DEDEX to the DEDS in his past lives when he WAS a Daughter,
Wife and Mother.
Notice that in this life he experiences it as having a Mother,
Wife, and Daughter, whereas in the past life he experiences it
as being a Daughter, Wife and Mother.
The reversal of order causes an interesting cross over in trying
to run the DED - DEDEX sequence.
((Electra talks alot about the Ded/Dedex and Motivator/Overt
sequence, and she uses it below. Sometimes it's not so clear why
these are labeled the way they are, so I am going to try to explain
it here again in a few words. A DED is an overt with NO PRIOR
PROVOCATION. Mother is jealous of son as he is growing up and
so 'puts him down'. A DEDEX is when someone does that to you as
a son in this life. Your mother is jealous of you as a son as
you are growing up, and so puts you down. It infuriates you. That's
a DEDEX. To the degree that the DEDEX sticks to the son in this
life, one would want to look for common DEDS AS A MOTHER in a
prior life. The son who is being put down, now feels provoked
and kills his mother with a glare or a baseball bat to the head.
A sad day to be sure. That's a MOTIVATOR for the mother and a
PROVOKED OVERT for the son.
In the mother's next life AS A SON, when she is put down by
her mother, she, as the son, will DRAMATIZE the earlier death
incident of being killed by her own son in the prior life, and
will strike out as the son in this life attempting to kill her
Thus mother does something to son, that's a DED for the mother.
Son does something back to the mother, that's a MOTIVATOR, for
the mother. Next life as the son, mother gets it back from her
new mother, that's a DEDEX for the son. Then she does to her new
mother what her son did to her in the prior life. That's the DRAMATIZED
MOTIVATOR or 'MOTIVATED' OVERT for the son.
Thus you get a time sequence that looks like this:
Past Life -------> Future Life
Mother Mother ----> Son Son
DED ---> MOTIVATOR ---> DEDEX ---> OVERT
Mother causes Son to suffer. (Mother's DED)
Mother suffers Son. (Mother's MOTIVATOR)
Mother becomes Son in next Life.
Son suffers Mother. (Son's DEDEX)
Son causes Mother to suffer. (Son's DRAMATIZED OVERT)
Mother ----> Son (Mother's DED, Son's DEDEX)
Mother <---- Son (Mother's MOTIVATOR, Son's DRAMATIZED OVERT)
Mother becomes Son in next Life
Son <---- Mother (Son's DEDEX, Mother's DED)
Son ----> Mother (Son's DRAMATIZED OVERT, Mother's MOTIVATOR)
DEDEX's only STICK to a being if they have prior common DEDS.
OVERTS only STICK to a being if they have prior MOTIVATORS
of which the overt was a DRAMATIZATION.
To stick means TO NOT HEAL.
Sticking only happens when there is a VALENCE SWAP.
In other words what you did as a son to your mother is not
enough to make what your mother did to you as a son stick. What
you did AS a mother TO A SON, IS enough to make what your mother
did to you AS a son stick.
Sticking happens because of REGRET (the effort to turn time
back) JUSTIFICATION and RESTRAINT. Where there is no regret, justification
or restraint, there will be no sticking.))
AS A MALE IN THIS LIFE RUN,
As a son,
1.) 'Tell me about being a mother.' (DED) (past life)
2.) 'Tell me about having a mother.' (DEDEX) (this life)
3.) 'Tell me about having a son.' (MOTIVATOR) (past life)
4.) 'Tell me about being a son.' (OVERT) (this life)
As a husband,
1.) 'Tell me about being a wife.' (DED) (past life)
2.) 'Tell me about having a wife.' (DEDEX) (this life)
3.) 'Tell me about having a husband.' (MOTIVATOR) (past life)
4.) 'Tell me about being a husband.' (OVERT) (this life)
As a father,
1.) 'Tell me about being a daughter.' (DED) (past life)
2.) 'Tell me about having a daughter.' (DEDEX) (this life)
3.) 'Tell me about having a father.' (MOTIVATOR) (past life)
4.) 'Tell me about being a father.' (OVERT) (this life)
AS A FEMALE IN THIS LIFE RUN,
As a daughter,
1.) 'Tell me about being a father.' (DED) (past life)
2.) 'Tell me about having a father.' (DEDEX) (this life)
3.) 'Tell me about having a daughter.' (MOTIVATOR) (past life)
4.) 'Tell me about being a daughter.' (OVERT) (this life)
As a wife,
1.) 'Tell me about being a husband.' (DED) (past life)
2.) 'Tell me about having a husband.' (DEDEX) (this life)
3.) 'Tell me about having a wife.' (MOTIVATOR) (past life)
4.) 'Tell me about being a wife.' (OVERT) (this life)
As a mother,
1.) 'Tell me about being a son.' (DED) (past life)
2.) 'Tell me about having a son.' (DEDEX) (this life)
3.) 'Tell me about having a mother.' (MOTIVATOR) (past life)
4.) 'Tell me about being a mother.' (OVERT) (this life)
Run them around and around to a major release.
'Who are you trying to make wrong?'
'How are you trying to make them wrong?'
'What are you trying to make them wrong for?'
'Why are you trying to make them wrong?'
((Notice last two questions are NOT the same. The first asks what
is it about them you are trying to make wrong. The second asks
you trying to make that wrong.))
SESSION NOTES 6/15/94
((P.S. I just came out of session after having read this for
the nth time, preparing to send it.
I ran the following. Looking for major STOP/LFBD reads but
taking up all reads of significance, I assessed for,
'Something on being a Mother?'
'Something on not being a Mother?'
'Something on having a Mother?'
'Something on not having a Mother?'
'Something on being a Wife?'
'Something on not being a Wife?'
'Something on having a Wife?'
'Something on not having a Wife?'
'Something on being a Daughter?'
'Something on not being a Daughter?'
'Something on having a Daughter?'
'Something on not having a Daughter?'
'Something on being a Father?'
'Something on not being a Father?'
'Something on having a Father?'
'Something on not having a Father?'
'Something on being a Husband?'
'Something on not being a Husband?'
'Something on having a Husband?'
'Something on not having a Husband?'
'Something on being a Son?'
'Something on not being a Son?'
'Something on having a Son?'
'Something on not having a Son?'
I also had to check Grandmother and Granddaughter a few times
to get the others reading again.
Although quite a few of these were charged, the one that seemed
to run the longest and deepest was for me, 'Something on not being
Ran it to an extraordinary release. Very central to the persisting
somatics in my throat, nose and face.
Thank you Electra Love, sorry for squirreling your tech!