((My comments in double parentheses - Homer)) THE CORE THIS LIFETIME INCIDENT LIFE REPAIR SERIES 9. MUM - 1 8 October 1993 Copyright (C) 1993 Dr. Keith Mumby Redistribution rights granted for non commercial purposes. ((This is easily one of the most brilliant pieces on clearing technology that I have read in a long time. Dr. Mumby is a professional doctor, and a clearing practitioner. He is the head of Applied Philosophics (AP), Manchester England.)) Sooner or later you will come across an incident which is central to shaping the preclear's experiential track this lifetime. It is severely aberrative, very traumatic and often TOTALLY OCCLUDED. It holds the preclear in thrall and defines that person's case for life. We call it the core incident and you may encounter it as early as the first few hours in Life Repair. This type of incident needs a particular handling, developed by AP specialist Mike Wray, which is unlike any other type of auditing or therapy. The usual method of reducing traumatic incidents simply won't work on core incidents. Hence this issue. Despite being a current-lifetime event, the core incident is completely unconfrontable to the preclear and remains shut off behind a wall of pain and fear. Sometimes the individual doesn't even know it is there, much less the likely content. We have learned that cases can be audited for years, going on to the whole track and up the transformation levels, yet totally fail to come to grips with the core incident. We know that whatever is the most unconfrontable is what aberrates the most. This means the greatest possible case gain gets missed. IMPLANT For obvious reasons, the core incident would normally lie in childhood years (though not necessarily). It is shocking, utterly bewildering and painfully overwhelming, ((and beyond all comprehension)), to the young person's mind. Incidents of sexual abuse are often of this type. The event is so awful and frightening, the being locks the memory away and makes a postulate to never EVER look at it again. He or she may know it is there (usually not) but cannot even remember its content, much less run it to erasure. Yet it cleaves to the very heart of the identity they hold in this lifetime. Occluded it certainly is, but it is there, spreading its poison. It is mocked up and held so obsessively and heavily that it gains a powerful auto-hypnotic quality. You could call it an implant, that's how intense the thing is. Like any implant, it will stick the individual emotionally. He or she is driven down the tone scale, until being pinned down forcefully at the level their resistance is overwhelmed. Thus the incident is characterized by intractable rage, fear, grief, despair or apathy ((or all of the above plus more)). The person has a fixed tone at this level. But here's the catch. The secret revealed which will free so many sufferers is this: THE PERSON IS ACTUALLY DOING IT TO THEMSELVES. It is THEIR picture that is being driven in on them so destructively. The tendency is to mis-own the responsibility and blame the perpetrator of the attack. This is what locks it up. We know from the mechanics of auditing that anything which persists contains a lie. Whereas it is true that the victim had something done to them, the auto-hypnosis of this implant is their own responsibility. This is the ONLY way to unlock the door. The fact of obsessively making the picture and using it to harm their lives is an act of destruction the person does against themselves on the first dynamic. This is what destroys their self-respect and dignity, because deep down the individual knows the truth. The key to lifting this trauma, you will see, is FORGIVENESS FOR SELF, much more so than forgiveness for the oppressor. SEXUAL ABUSE It is apparent that sexual abuse is widespread in our society. Molestation and hurt of children has been described as the flaming danger signal that any civilization is on its way out. To my knowledge, primitive people do not engage in this particular perversion. Adults who practise a wide variety of adventurous sexual activity find it difficult to come to terms with these acts. It is hard to understand just how shocking a rape may be to an innocent child who encounters nudity and sex for the first time. Often it is not the sexuality of the incident but the FORCE and FEAR that harms. Children who are lured or teased into depraved acts probably do not suffer so much. But the unfortunates who are held down physically and violated can be crushed utterly as beings. The betrayal and mystification is all the worse to them because it comes from parents or close family members who are, or should be, symbols of comfort and safety. The only solution they have to the agony is to shut it off completely and refuse to think about it. The occlusion is made worse by the fact that the abuser will usually add orders to keep quiet with such aberrative commands as "If you tell anyone about this, I'll kill/thrash you/lock you in a cupboard forever...etc", which only adds further to the inaccessibility. This is what you are up against as an auditor. PHYSICAL VIOLENCE It isn't all sexual, of course. A child can live a life of terror due to frequent physical beatings which over the years becomes gradually locked up as a lengthy core incident, even when the beatings cease. The social welfare care of children is far from effective and cases constantly surface in the press showing just what some youngsters have to endure before anyone tries to call a halt. Some are treated worse than animals and indeed there have been a number of deaths due to starvation and abuse. To make matters worse, some of the support institutions mete out the worst imaginable treatment of youngsters taken into their care. The so-called "pin-down" tortures in Staffordshire children's homes which came to light in 1987 is an example of the way children may be treated as sub-human by adult bullies and perverts who call themselves "social workers". ((Another kind of core incident is simple repeated starvation from not being fed over and over again when one is hungry. Or the baby is ignored when it cries and the mother comes only when it has given up and gone into silence and life apathy about anyone ever coming. The mother worries when the baby is NOT wailing! This long term abuse ruins the very core of the child's being, and is almost impossible to audit, as the child is in a long term repeated near death engram, that may have happened thousands of times.)) TIME DOES NOT HEAL The older a person gets, the more the optimism and vitality of youth erodes and the more this incident comes to dominate the psyche. Life, after all, will constantly hammer them up against the hidden memory. It is part of almost every mental computation - a true "held down seven". Sometimes a key-in will mark a major set-back in life. For many it is downhill from there. This is the stuff of psychotic breaks and many cases live VERY close to the edge with this. It colours all the person's thinking and destroys their self-esteem. Some cases simply loath themselves and what they have become. Because of the self-implant effect, the individual goes about with this nightmare twisting every perception and attitude in life. Often the person is so far out of valence, he or she will bewail being "somebody else" or "not being me". Family or spouses can come in for harsh accusation for supposedly preventing the victim from being able "to do what they want", when all the time it is the implant that is in control. The "forget and move on psychologies", such as using neuro- linguistic programming to rewrite a person's reality is VERY dangerous for these people. The monster can unleash its violence at any moment when the combination of circumstances are right, with greatly detrimental consequences. Pretending it isn't there is exactly what is wrong with the person's life. Do NOT fall for this in therapy. SUSPECTING AN ABUSE INCIDENT. The difficulty with core incidents is getting at them to run. They are so buried that the auditor may miss them on routine case procedures. It is vital, therefore, to maintain a high index of suspicion. Important warning signs are fixed tone, no case gain, little or no TA action, the case doesn't run well, despair in auditing and the preclear out of valence. The TA will often be high and the needle stuck. Or after apparently good sessions, the preclear keeps coming back with a reading mental mass in restimulation. The really diagnostic signs, however are as follows: a sense of loneliness and isolation lack of self worth rejection desperation the feeling of being to blame These are persistent attitudes that come up endlessly on the case. No amount of auditing seems to shift them. Nothing AS-ISes. The case may be virtually unrunnable if this is the situation, until the core incident is found and addressed. On no account try to put people with these manifestations onto more advanced transformations. They will simply become over-restimulated and may go into a permanent decline. The anguish and sense of failure seems to intensify, the more the hidden memory is skirted around. After all, the being knows it is there and understands only too well the shame of being unable (unwilling) to view it. ((The subject of why victims feel guilty or shamed of themselves is a hot and controversial one, but the fact is one of the fastest roads into the withheld motivator of this life IS guilt and shame. There will be overts after the incident, they won't be able to live up to their fair chosen duties and so on, there will be overts IN the incident as they try to strike back with all the intention they can, and there may be co-excused withheld overts before the incident in past lives when they did to their children what was done to them in this life. All these trails of guilt must be taken up in order to get at the anger in this life that is killing the person. The person is actually killing themselves WITH the incident in order to stay alive THROUGH the incident! There will be such a computation in the incident that must be gotten off for the the thing to fully erase.)) The worst cases you may have to deal with are people who have slicked over the core incident in other therapies, which bury it further in evaluation and glibness. The individual you may find has been made to rationalize their experiences; made into a confirmed "victim" by misdirected sympathy; bounced off the engram repeatedly and generally made even more fearful or helpless in the face of its charge. RUNNING THE CORE INCIDENT The whole key to the case is to locate and reduce the core incident. Yet there is total somatic shut-off and no recall. How to proceed? Firstly, any light auditing which gets off charge is valid. Life repair entry is excellent at unburdening. Gradually, the individual's confront is increased so that they understand the nature of mental facsimilies and how to deal with them. The existence of a core incident may become apparent, or the auditor may begin to suspect one. As you learn more about the individual's early life, the possibility of such an event may be obvious. Be on the look out. You may be suspicious, due to the character of the parents and immediate family members and the relationship of each to your case. Abuse incidents do not tend to take place in loving balanced homes. If it is not discreditable ((a discreditable incident like sexual abuse which the perpetrator is trying to hide)), such as an accident or operation leading to an NED (near death experience), it is possible the preclear may even have been told what happened conceptually. Thus the core incident can be fully described but he or she, of course, would have no direct access via recall. ((It may be that there is a train of incidents that the parent does not consider discreditable but also has little inkling of the damage they cause, so they talk about them alot even though they were deadly. 'Oh you used to cry and cry, and we just ignored you, you were such a noise maker, we thought you would drive us nuts, but eventually you quieted down. You were such a nice baby.')) The way to get into these heavy incidents is the technique of "feeling repeater", as described in Life repair Series No. 8. We find and work on the crucial feeling, sensation, emotion, attitude or pain that characterizes the incident and let it drift us down into the depths. Once sonic or visio gets turned on, it is easier. More and more of it comes into view; the preclear bounces out but you keep thrusting them back in by focusing on the feeling - all the time the feeling or attitude etc. You can keep breaking off chunks. The file clerk offers a somatic or image but will seem to snatch it away again straight away; it becomes re-buried. Great patience is needed: 10 - 20 hours on JUST ONE INCIDENT is not uncommon. With a psychometer, of course, it is much easier. This will read on charge in the pre-conscious area, just below awareness. The auditor guides with "What was that?" as he follows the reads and digs it out, bit by bit. When nothing is moving, a key phrase such as "I can never forgive myself" or "This is hopeless" will read well and you can keep bringing the preclear back to this over and over. INTERFACE You have to get at how the incident affected THEM, the way it is used as a filter on reality and perception. How does he or she THINK about this incident? The sense of being to blame or the sheer unconfrontability often thrusts the person into a different valence and he or she will not see it from their own viewpoint - WHICH OF COURSE IS THE ONLY PLACE IT CAN BE AS-ISED FROM. It is said that 80% of life is how you take it and 20% is how you make it. You need to keep asking "How did you take to/respond to that" at each stage, over and over. Mike Wray calls this the interface. The preclear is controlled via what they believe about the memory and its consequences. This brings us back to the self-hypnotism effect. To those of you who know your transformational grade material, it acts rather like a service facsimile, as described by L. Ron Hubbard, circa 1951. ((The service facsimile is that incident the preclear uses to excuse his failures, and has a computation at its core of the form, 'The way to get disabled is to be able, so the way to remain able is to be disabled. These are called Safe Solutions because they help the being deal with Dangerous Problems, but really they are Dangerous Solutions because they are an attempt to handle a Dangerous Problem by being dangerous to oneself.)) It is something the person uses to explain failures in survival. It has come to be USEFUL to that person, at some crazy computation level. At the very least, it is a definitive (prescriptive) view of reality for them. ((Prescribe means to set down a rule about how one should life to be safe, happy or able.)) DIFFICULTIES One of the major feelings to prevent running of CIs is the utter disbelief of the case. The person has a hard time accepting the truth of what they recover as memory. It may be weeks ((or in my case years)) after successfully exploding the core incident that the person actually dares to believe it may have been true. ((Core incidents often restimulate whole track and magic track, also one's own overts along those lines. It is often a Withheld Motivator sitting on top of a Co-excused Overt in a past life. Thus there is tremendous incredibility on the incident, much of which comes from what is RESTIMULATED AT THE TIME OF THE INCIDENT independent of the incident itself.)) Another is the tendency to give up. The person will often cry in anguish that "Nothing can be done. It's hopeless. I'm done for." These can be terrible emotions for the auditor to have to confront and you need to be in good personal shape. But you can also use these for repeaters and this may plunge you quickly into the heart of the incident. Unconsciousness may surface and be reflected as falling into a stupor while running. Just keep going. It will boil off. One of the most striking manifestations, says Mike Wray, is that the individual seems UTTERLY BLIND. They just cannot see what they have been doing that has been so ruinous, if you can imagine a person blind at the level of beingness. The bewilderment persists and the auditor may need to lead evaluatively by clever guidance, such as "Can you see how this would lead to...etc?" It is important to use only hypothetical examples and show them on some "imaginary case" how if THAT occurred and then THAT, the result would surely be...(whatever has happened to them). Slowly, chunk by chunk, it surrenders. FORGIVENESS. After you have run the incident through plenty of times, take a pause to review things. Asking: "Let's take stock; how does this incident seem to you now?" will update you on the PC's tone and awareness. You have got some charge off an incident which was clearly shameful or hurtful. Ask: "How do you feel now about yourself after having gone through all that?" He or she will probably not be feeling very positive about themselves. Also you want to know: "How do you feel now about this other person in the incident?" You will usually get a charged up response, such as "bastard". If this is the attitude, you say: "I take it that it would still be very difficult to forgive that person fully for what happened?" which will probably read. Explain that you want to really purge or cleanse the thing fully out of the person. Tell the preclear you can see there is still some deep seated anger and ask him or her to GET THE IDEA, IN PRESENT TIME, OF COMPLETELY 100% FORGIVING THE PERSON THAT HURT OR ABUSED THEM. With luck, that will blow down and you will get a floating needle and suitable realizations and smiles to end off. The preclear will have fully AS-ISed the incident and all its pain and be freed finally by that last act of forgiveness. But more likely at first, they will try, yet be fairly non- committal. You may need to ask: "How did that go?" after they have worked at it for a few minutes. The reply is usually "I don't know" or something like that. It is obvious they haven't forgiven anything. So say: "When I asked you to do that, what feeling did you bump into?". It will start reading and you can call "That..that.." till they tell you what it was - irritation, grief or whatever emotion turns on. Then you go back to repeater feelings, using this new emotion that has surfaced. "We need to confront that emotion if you are going to be able to get free of this fully and erase it altogether. Where do you get that feeling inside? Now really confront it..." and you are away running it again. Some new material might come up. You re-scan it over and over, TIR ((Traumatic Incident Reduction)) style, till that too all erases. Then you go back to: "How do you feel about this incident now?" and so on, back to forgiveness, round and round, till it is GONE forever. SELF-FORGIVENESS You can tell from what has been run if the person has guilt and self-punishment. Shame, blame or regret means they are still beating themselves up about it in some way. You must also ask: "How do you feel about forgiving yourself for getting into this situation in the first place? How does that feel to you?" Probably there will be doubt or resistance to this. Tell him or her to: "Get the idea of completely 100% absolving yourself or all guilt, all blame". Watch for a read and ask "What's that?" Get off the negative emotions as above. Do the same thing again. As I mentioned above, it is hating self and blaming self that locks these up at core. You must go down far to get this. You are gouging out stuff pretty deeply from the soul at this point. Eventually all the negativity will come out, the charge blow and the meter go free needle. Up it comes and sooner or later he or she will recognize they no longer feel guilt, no blame, no hurt...it's shiny and clean and NO PERSISTENCE (see definition of AS-ISness). You cannot free the being fully until you have achieved this. The hurt will linger slightly, the sense of being somehow a "victim", which is where most therapies squarely place the unlucky case. ((The whole theory of Co-excused withholds comes into play here on Core Incidents. The being receives an overwhelming incident in this life that makes them want to kill or ruin the perpetrator WHILE the incident is going on. An effort to strike out and harm the opponent is generated at the height of the incident, but it scuttled in mid stroke by a sudden rememberance of a prior guilt. If the being strikes out to 'teach the perpetrator a lesson' now, that means THEY deserve the same treatment for what they did life times ago to their own children. There is little satisfaction to having killed your tormentor if you now have to go turn yourself in to receive a similar execution for a prior deed which has until now remained conveniently hidden. It is during these moments of High Injustice that the being's craving for Absolute Justice comes once again to the surface, but as he prepares to deliver the death blow, he remembers he has one coming to him too. So he sheepishly changes his mind IN MID STROKE and kind of shrinks back into his suffering, lest anyone be reminded of his own misdeeds. Any thetan in any baby body can kill any parent dead by merely throwing a bolt at him. That he doesn't and throws the bolt at himself instead is a sure sign of a Co-excused Overt / Withheld Motivator lock up. Later he ends up holding onto the present Injustice more out of a desire to prove that he DIDN'T strike back and what such a good fellow he is an all to suffer all this outrageous treatment so magnanimously, so that when others finally find out what HE did many life times ago, they will treat him with the same forbearance. If he is still worried about consequences of his own past actions being found out, NOTHING will get him to give up the present motivator.)) OTHER BUTTONS. You may FN an incident fully and yet you find the preclear still slightly hung up, or the auditor gets the sense that there is something still there. Many possible flows and feelings exist. Top AP auditors, from their wide understanding of the mechanics of the mind, particularly "buttons", can pick up extra charge, such as RESPONSIBILITY, SUPPRESSION and ADMIRATION. The preclear will be aware of this at some level and happily co-operate in releasing the last shreds of charge. Perhaps the preclear is still feeling blameworthy. Get the person to look up the definition of RESPONSIBILITY so they can see it is different from shame, blame and regret. Sometimes even clearing the definition blows it totally. The person realizes they had a false concept of responsibility, which in AP means CAUSE, it does not mean "fault". ((Fault means something you did that you didn't mean to do, responsibility means knowing willing cause.)) In a more established case, incidentally, you can run any heavy incident on this responsibility idea. Once a certain level of awareness is reached, the being knows that he or she is at cause over every part of experience and reality. Similarly, you word-clear the meaning of SUPPRESSION: HARMFUL INTENTION AGAINST WHICH YOU CAN'T FIGHT BACK. The definition alone will often light up the person's awareness and you can re-run it all, lifting the button. Once the person understands the mechanism of suppression, they begin to realize just how "reasonable" they may have been for years about the onslaught of events, or a certain person in particular. It may have become chronically instilled into a person to be "nice", even when someone has intentions to harm them. It can be a great relief to waken up to what was happening and quite therapeutic to let out some anger, rather than bottling it all up! Forgiveness isn't what is wanted for suppression: it's reverting to being at CAUSE with that individual's influence. This again is a question of teaching the person to confront. It is usual to have a low confront of evil and assume people are OK, when quite clearly they are not (see AP 000, the Stressful Personality). By being reasonable during auditing, the case may miss half the charge or more. Incidentally, "reasonable" too, has a special meaning in AP: it means putting up with, accepting and even explaining away things that are WRONG. Clearly nothing will improve without the recognition that a condition is non-optimum and so reasonableness is a condemnation to suffering. Basically, this is "hands on" case handling. You don't programme a case "in the chair" but you sure had better be able to think on your feet. There is no substitute for FULL AND COMPLETE UNDERSTANDING OF THE MECHANICS OF THE MIND AT THE HUMAN LEVEL, as we teach it in AP. The experienced auditor will then know that much bigger wins are sometimes available to the preclear and not end off at the first round of end- phenomena. Finally, I want to mention ADMIRATION as a button. We are currently still checking this one out. The idea comes from the early 1950's writings of L. Ron Hubbard. According to him, anything which is not fully admired tends to persist. He was talking here of concepts at the junction between psychology and the metaphysical. This is really what the spirit or being is doing. What little investigation we have done to date shows that by fully admiring a bad experience, the people in it, one's self and one's reaction to it, it will simply dissolve. But run it and get the main charge off first. This is for really tough core implants. Think of it like clearing up a mess in the parlour. You carry off all the rubble and sweep up: admiration processing will get rid of the nasty stain on the carpet! Look out for a future issue on this. Dr. Keith Mumby Applied Philosophics PO Box 38 Chorlton Manchester M21 1JL Tel/Fax: + 44 61 881 1167 ----------------------------------------------------------------------- Homer Wilson Smith This file may be found at homer@rahul.net ftp.rahul.net/pub/homer/act/mum1.memo Posted to usenet newsgroup: alt.clearing.technology