((My comments in double parentheses - Homer)) SESSION 4/18/94 ACT - 59 18 April 1994 Copyright (C) 1994 Homer Wilson Smith Redistribution rights granted for non commercial purposes. If we consider that the purpose of a game is to get something done, and that these desires to get something done can be called 'drives', and if we assume that there are 8 or 10 or 16 of these drives, normally called dynamics, then it can be observed that people are in various states of operability on each of these many drives. A little closer look at someone will show that on the drives that he is in the worst shape on, he will be found to be blocking their forward advance himself, for reasons long lost to him. Consciously he will feel that he is being stopped by others, but that will never audit, the truth is he is stopping himself. But he no longer knows how or why or how to undo the stop. Once the glue or taffy is put in place, the only way to get rid of it is to put it in place again. That's called Re Operation in Adore, and Perfect Duplication in Scientology. Hence the auditing question, "Has a drive been blocked (by you?)" "Is a drive being blocked?" And God forbid, "What drive is being blocked?" The dynamics or drives are arenas of action, each one bigger and more vast than the one before it. The second dynamic of parents, mates and children is bigger than the first of self. Groups, being first and foremost groups of FAMILIES is clearly bigger than the second. The fourth dynamic is the collection of all third dynamics and relates essentially to the total goings on of one species, which for us is Homo Sap. The fifth dynamic is the collection of all possible fourth dynamics, or all living things whether animal or plant. The sixth dynamic is the collection of all possible material things, including all space, time, matter and energy, the Time Stone of Adore, and the MEST of Scientology. The Seventh dynamic is the collection of all Spirits and Spiritual things inside this one particular universe. And the Eight dynamic, often considered God or infinity is really the all encompassing Creator dynamic for this universe. Now each one of these dynamics has a product, a game to play, a purpose and a set of goals and opposition goals, and these are manifested as drives to get things done by the players partaking in that dynamic. The most important thing to know is that each dynamic is a subset of the one above it, not a separate entity unto itself. Thus the goals and drives that you might have on the 5th dynamic would relate in some considerable measure to the goals you have on the 6th. Likewise the goals you would have on the 4th dynamic of all mankind, would relate to the goals you have for all living things which is a bigger goal and bigger sphere of action. Thus a goal on a lower dynamic can be COMPUTED FROM the various goals on a higher dynamic, or this should be the case if the being is sane. Each goal that a being has on a lower dynamic is in some sense a subset of a goal he has on the higher dynamic that the lower dynamic is a subset of. His goals on the 4th are in some measure logically derived from his goals on the 5th which are themselves partly derived from his goals on the 6th. Sometimes however a being can get introverted down into the lower dynamics and leave the higher dynamics behind, divorcing them from his own idea of what he is about, and he will actually take to opposing the lower dynamics, which he is still interested in, against the higher dynamics which he kind of wishes were no longer a part of life. This is where Ron got "What is NOT part of life?" as a question for finding Rock Slamming R2-12 items. Listed and Nulled properly it gives the item that the preclear is NOT being and thus is opposed to with all his might. What happens is that the being takes a loss on a higher dynamic, let's say the 6th of space and time and planets and galaxies. He screws up really badly, maybe he makes half a planet unlivable with some experiment, a lot of people get hurt and he rues the day he was born, or at least the day he ever decided he was big enough to make any good decision in such a large arena of control. Thus he withdraws from that dynamic, not by withdrawing UPWARDS from whence he came, but by withdrawing DOWNWARDS deeper into creation. He thus severs his roots with the Divine and becomes a Lost Soul, literally a wanderer without an umbilical cord to his Home. What he is withdrawing from of course is the goal line he had established on the dynamic he rues. He is moving away from the DRIVE that empowered him there. He will start blocking that drive with all his might lest he make that mistake again, and he will forget and bury the goal that he had on that dynamic to make it be no more. BUT ALL OF HIS LOWER GOALS WERE IN PART DERIVED FROM AND WERE A SUBSET OF THAT HIGHER GOAL! So now he is goalless across all the lower dynamics too. In order to keep going though he has to have SOME goals, and he doesn't feel like he has given up entirely playing around in the lower dynamics so he will come up with some new goals. He withdrew from the 6th dynamic, so now he is at most on the 5th and lower, and he will invent or create goals on the 5th dynamic that have nothing whatsoever to do with what he was properly doing on the 6th. His goals on the 5th are now 'out of season and for the wrong reason.' Further his goals on the 5th will to some extent be at cross purposes with his original goals on the 6th, and with other people's goals who are still sane on the 6th, and he will find himself slowly but surely turning the 6th dynamic into an ultimate opp term along with everyone else who is still doing their job on the 6th properly. It is inevitable that in pursuing this off course activity on the 5th he will eventually cause more trouble than he is worth, and he will recognize this fact and take a loss on the 5th dynamic too, thus withdrawing to the 4th. Repeating the same scenario over and over again he eventually decays down to the first dynamic and becomes an Only One. As an Only One his only goal is to survive in spite of everyone being against him, and he can't imagine what good the remaining dynamics are too him. Parents, mates, children well they are nothing but a hassle. Groups to him mean obligations and induction into the armed services to fight other groups, nothing but trouble. Mankind he finds to be utterly foul. Animals do nothing but take craps on his lawn, MEST is cold and uncaring, spirits don't exist except as bug swarms, and he has a bone to chew with God. Thus you find him at the bottom of the barrel with all of his drives intact, but fully opposed and blocked BY HIMSELF, and he has become the penultimate opp term to everything he ever held dear. All to protect things from himself. Thus "What drive has been blocked and why" leads right into what he is doing wrong in life, and why he is not clear. It also leads right into a definition of 'clear on a dynamic'. A person is clear on a given dynamic if he has no drives on that dynamic that are being blocked BY HIMSELF. It's ok if you are opposed by another, its not ok if you are being opposed by yourself. That's a good definition of NOT CLEAR. Opposing yourself. An OT is someone who is not even opposed by others. Thus we also have the auditing question, "How does it serve your goals to oppose your goals?" It's utterly unrunnable though because the person just will never figure it out until he sees that he is protecting his goals from HIMSELF by opposing himself. Thus you will find most of the human race INTROVERTED into the lower dynamics. That means they have turned their attention inward into the smaller arenas of life and AWAY from the higher arenas of life. Worse the guy has done a flip on who and what he is. The guy has located himself as a first dynamic looking upward at the higher dynamics rather than as an 8th dynamic looking downward towards the lower dynamics. The guy as a first dynamic is INSIDE of life and as his attention becomes smaller and smaller in scope, span, depth and field, he is looking more and more towards where he is. ((From Adore, Scope is how much space you can cover. Span is how many objects in that space you can span and competently control at once. Depth is how much you know about each object in your span. Field is your reputation in the field, or how much other's recognize your Scope, Span, Depth and Field.)) When he no longer considers himself a logical extension of some higher place that he ALSO is, his life becomes a SOLUTION to an intolerable problem he had with being a bigger being on a higher dynamic. Thus since he generates problems and oppositions all the way down his descent into the lower dynamics, it is clear that the problems you find him with on the lower dynamics are in some sense SOLUTIONS to unconfrontable problems he had on the higher dynamics that he is no longer aware of. He complains about his wife and kids because THAT is a confrontable and comfortable problem to him, while what was eating him on the 6th is gone. He will protest this analysis of his condition on the second with the wife and kids loudly, until you get him to spot the original problem on the 6th that he fell away from, severing any connection with the Fountainhead of Source. Almost all of his problems on the 2nd dynamic are the result of being miles off course from his true purpose on the 6th or whatever dynamic he first bombed out of. ((You will find many preclears walking around wondering whether Earthkind (4th dynamic) is worthwhile doing anything for. Mankind is a composite being, body and thetan. Body and thetan are dicoms, the body doesn't want to be a spirit, and the spirit doesn't want to be a body. As they run on opposite principles, body/thetan conflicts are rampant and highly destructive to constructive action on any dynamic they affect. Once body and thetan become melded, the spirit tries to turn the body into a spirit, and body tries to turn the spirit into a body. They remain forever opposed and at odds with each other. This is not a natural nor even benign state, thus the 4th dynamic *ON EARTH* begins the area where the 7th becomes confused with the 5th, namely animal life, as the body is an animal, and thus a sane composite and sane 4th dynamic is almost impossible. Crazy people will take to wiping out themselves by wiping out everyone else first. Thus there will be key moments when your preclear debonded with the the 4th dynamic and with mankind as a whole. Being on Earth, being part of mankind was no longer worthwhile to him. You will find him thus doing poorly on all his lower dynamics that get their parent thrust from the 4th.)) Once he recovers operability and willingness on the 6th, he will once again logically compute goals and actions on the 2nd dynamic that are in accord with his goals on the 6th, and being once more connected to Source, the problems he has on the 2nd will be acceptable and desirable to him. That's a Grade I by the way. ((The 6th is not the highest dynamic, as there is 7th spirit, and 8th the infinite above it. A meatball is one who has no awareness of his existence on the 7th dynamic or the 8th, and who believes that everything is made of the 6th (MEST) and that the 6th is the highest there is. He thinks his LIVING consciousness is made of cold, dead and uncaring matter energy, space and time. In fact he DEFINES life as a particular arrangement of dead things, namely atoms, molecules etc. These beings believe they are born to live once and die once, and that's it bud, and their future is dust in the wind. You turn them loose in a crazy composite 4th, and you have the makings of an atomic war to end all wars.)) A Grade I is a Problems release and is someone who is able to recognize the source of problems (himself) and make them vanish. He does this by withdrawing UPWARDS at will from the arena of control if he is no longer interested in those problems that naturally occur on that dynamic. The sum totality of the anatomy of a theta trap, is to withdraw DOWNWARDS to escape any part of life. To solve any problem you become bigger than the arena of action, you span all sides and parties of the problem until you are no longer interested in taking sides, and you take off. At the point you have disengaged your self from taking sides in the matter you will HAVE the power to do what you will with either side, but you may have no inclination to do so. But then again you might. So its a sort of a paradox. Power stems from willingness. Power to change stems from a willingness to let be. Thus what a being WITH power to change will choose, is certainly not motivated by unwillingness. The being who tries to disengage from a problem by becoming smaller than the conflict and moving away from it into elsewhereness, is merely operating MORE unwillingness, and so less power. Eventually the problem will come after him. You can't run away far enough in this universe. You can't run away from space and time by running around IN space and time. There is no place IN space and time that is far away FROM space and time. Unwillingness for something to BE which exists anyhow, is merely saying it has more power than you do to create itself against your wishes. Which is why leaving is usually disastrous in the long run, and safety for an OT is being where he is. The being who is willing to be where he is usually ends up disengaging properly from his problems and 'leaves' by withdrawing up the tone scale back into Omni Sovereignty and Source. The being who is unwilling to be where he is usually ends up trying to disengage from his problems by going 'elsewhere', going deeper into space and time, trying to find a dark and remote corner to hide in. Many eons later you find him complaining of loneliness. Its really only a longing for the problem he ran away from and didn't span. LONLINESS IS NOT FOR PEOPLE, IT IS FOR GAMES! If you want people, find games. Games are full of people. Every game he withdraws from, by going downwards in the dynamics, eventually starts playing HIM. That's how you become a piece in someone else's game and eventually a pawn and then a broken pawn. Every broken pawn is an Only One. That's the most broken you can get and still be alive. The ultimate of this is the Hell of the Mormons, the Avichi of the Theosophists: Alone forever for free. Don't worry, be happy, "nothing is forever but peace and people." That's Adore by the way. Adore is very smug about these things, some times I wonder how it knows. Sometimes I think Adore is just whistling by the grave yard. Anyhow the way out is the way in, and here is at least a part of the way in. This all came from past days sessions, and is background to what I was going into today's session with. I went into session doing ok, somatics on, not dying. I used heavy handcream to baseline the needle for Chris's sake. I put on the cream and rubbed my hands fast and hard until they got hot and too sticky to rub. Its an exact point of absorption of the hand creme, and easy to replicate. I never use handcream any more because its unnecessary and it fouls the cans which have to be cleaned. But I used it all the time in the Church. TA started off at 2.6 because of the cream, and quickly rose to 4.5. With dry hands TA would have started off at 5.5 and come down to 4.5. Here are the relevant parts of the transcript of the session as recorded on the voice recorder. Previous session had ended: "Suffocation is on top of not talking about something. In other words the not talking about something came first, and the suffocation came second." This session: (The goal of this session as always is to terminatedly handle the somatics in my throat and breathing. This session is also an excellent example of how rewording the question over and over to get at all the charge eventually nails it with the right wording but which probably would have not worked had all the previous wordings not gone down.) "Something you are doing in present time that is criminal?" "Its also related to the throat tic." (A violent somatic I get which is the source of coughs if you let it cough rather than let it run out as a tic. Pleasure waves in right thigh as I write this.) "What criminality is there with you in present time?" "What criminality is in present time with you?" "Something criminal YOU are doing?" "Some criminality in present time?" "Is there some criminality in present time?" "Is there some criminality you are not telling me about?" Burp. Double Burp. (Burps are one of the most valued releases in session for me, they signal that I have nailed the two way forces forming the ridge in my spine, throat and brain. Burp means I am right. So do sneezes, muscle bumpies, and passing wind.) "What criminality is there?" "Do you have a withhold on criminality?" "Is there something criminal going on here you haven't told me about?" "Something you haven't said about criminality?" "Something criminal with you in present time?" "That nailed it but good." (With this question I was able to lock on to the forces in my throat that are causing the suffocation and anoxia. Thus I was able to make more of it for a moment and then release it smoothly part way. Thus although the somatic is not gone, it is better permanently.) "Something criminal in present time?" "Now its failing again." (Then it started going off course.) "Something or someone is criminal in present time?" "Some criminal beingness of the GPM?" "Nemesis One?" "Something criminal is going on." "Some criminality of some kind." "I just brought the TA to 3.0" (From 4.5) "Something criminal is right here now with you?" "Something criminal?" "Someone criminal you haven't told me about?" "Tell me about the criminality in your face?" "Are you being a criminal?" (yes) "Who or what would a criminal oppose?" "Who or what would oppose a criminal?" (Less mass on first question, thus terminal is a criminal and opp terminal is whatever a criminal would oppose, clearly these two items are down at the bottom of the GPM, nearest present time.) "We did good on this one." (I was getting exhausted and I recognized a stopping point where going further would be of no use. Usually the somatics release over the next hour after a session like this one.) TA = 3.5 Total TA = 10 Session time 30 minutes or so. 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