TWO ARTICLES ON MENTAL HEALTH AND HOW AND WHY THEY WERE WRITTEN by Frank Gordon First, some background. The following two articles were written in 1982, while I was still a mental patient; and trying to resolve my confusions. If I had then brought out the "confused inner child" I would have been overwhelmed. I could more safely take a professional approach because I was trained as a research biochemist (Harvard MA 1952). So these articles were a first step towards learning to protect and nurture my inner self. They are as a result formal and detached. Also, I've matched my experiences with reports from the literature. This countered indoctrination that my experiences were not valid; and affirmed that I did know what I was talking about, because others had reported the same thing. The legal aspect reflects the social view of "mental illness," and it helps to know it. To be in a group or a game without knowing the rules leaves one in confusion. I recently spoke to a patient who was attending a sex offender group, and asked him if it included instruction on the applicable law. It did not, leaving a residual confusion. Since these articles were written, Dr. Breggin, in his "Psychiatric Drugs: Hazards to the Brain" has covered the area of forced drugging thoroughly. Two years ago, I read Gendlin's "The Client's Client" and was struck by his observation that inaccurate feedback breaks into a client's inner experiencing and drives him to explain why that wasn't right. This describes what I was driven to do in these two articles. Instead of handling my real inner experiencings and problems, I was caught up in the "phoney struggle" of resisting drugs which were supposed to "cure" me, a "mental patient" of my "illness." Please note how many times I use quotes in these writings; i.e., "treatment" may actually be punishment, and a "cure" suppression. There are some intriguing and positive clues to real help, however. Whitehorn's (I,1) definition of a schizophrenic as a socially cautious person, hinting at the possibility of prior abuse (60% of admissions have such a history!); Perry's (I,10) note of the too rapid(!) recoveries at Diabasis House; and Stone's observation (II,39) of marked improvement from the formation of fortuitous special and close relationships. Recently, I found an astonishing observation: Stanton and Schwartz, in a sociological study: "The Mental Hospital" (Basic Books, NY, 1954), found patient upsetness to correlate with staff disagreement. When the disagreement was resolved, the patient recovered! Whatever was going on, it wasn't a genetic "biochemical deficiency." It might even be that the final answers to the phenomena of "mental illness" will be sociological ones. And now, turn to the writings of a then mental health patient, who was trying to clarify things for himself, and assert his essential rationality. ***